Thursday, February 18, 2010

I don't know how I can do without... I just need you now

Need you now - Lady Antebellum

Picture perfect memories....
I wonder if I ever crossed your mind
For me it happens all the time
... Can't stop looking at the door.
Wishing you'd come sweeping in the way you did before
I don't know how I can do without... I just need you now

We all go through phases. Right now it is rough, I just had a baby and feeling low about myself. Sometimes I a need a little extra from my husband to know that he loves me. I request this from him before Valentines Day. Unfortunately, I expected to much and I fell hard. This too shall pass. The tired nights and the lonely days doesn't help. We use to be so in tuned, and we would make fun of people who couldn't seem to get along. How can he forget who I am? This happens at every new baby.

For those who think that having a baby will solve everything, it doesn't. It will make it worst. (That's not what we did, but I know people who do.) I know someone going through a possible divorce, and it seems so sad. When there are children involved it is never good. Always know who you are and your relationship before having a baby. A baby will change your life, and only the strength that you had before will keep you together.

I know that when I lose my weight and get my confidence back, everything should be find. I won't need as much as I do right now. Love can fluctuate so much... right now I miss that passion.

1 comment:

The Tegens said...

i'm right there with you...Tommy is 8.5 weeks old and I feel like things have gotten emotionally hard just now. I guess I've finally had time to I so understand long, lonely days and nights. I am right there with you on being easily disappointed. I miss the passion, too. But, we can hold to the thought that it is only a season (easier said than done, I know!!!). I'll pray for you if you pray for me! :) Wish we still lived in Jax so we could hang out. --You did a great job on the hats, by the way!